Our prompt was to share a time when we stumbled in our lives.
Goodness, this is a hard one to share, but I’ve learned the purpose of stumbling is to help us grow. When shared, it helps others learn from our mistakes. So here goes…
I was 19 and newly married. I had moved from the only home I had ever known to a town I had only visited a few times during my short, five month engagement to Tom Walter.
My grandmother had lived with us for a while before Tom and I got married. She had prayed for my future husband for years. When she met Tom, she loved him and expressed it with food. She made him her chili when she learned how much he loved spicy food.
On one of my trips to Bradenton, I carried a mason jar full of Big Mama’s chili. It was love for him in a jar and it worked. Tom loved her as much as he loved her chili. This recipe still holds a special place in our story. (You can find her recipe under the From My Kitchen tab above).
Just a few months after our wedding, we visited my family only to discover my grandmother was sick. At 90 years old, she was unable to get out of bed. We were home for the weekend but I never went in to see her. I couldn’t bear seeing her frail, so I avoided her. I had no idea this would be my last chance to see her alive.
Just a couple of months later, she died.
I can’t express the regret I felt. I remembered many times as a teen trying to comfort her in her old age. She loved me, her youngest granddaughter, of this I am certain. But I stumbled with the emotion of letting her go. I thought if I ignored it I would get another chance, but I was wrong. So very wrong!
This regret is what fueled my passion to discover and write her story. I have found stumbling happens for a reason; it’s the platform that launches us to a place we would never get to had we not stumbled in the first place.
It’s easy to stand here today in my 60’s and judge my 19 year old response to death and dying, but that’s not fair. I did as much as I was emotionally able to do at the time, and it was for a purpose.￼
God takes our broken pieces and makes them into something special to be treasured—like a stained glass window. Today I’m holding up my broken pieces for you to see. God made something beautiful in spite of my mistakes.
How have you seen your mistakes made into something beautiful?
This is Day 6 of The Ultimate Blog Challenge to post everyday in November.
Beautiful Stained glass window photo
Thank you. I use Unsplash for free stock photos. 🥰
YES – I have seen this often and what my memoir is about. Loved your post.
Carol, Hard lessons for sure, but these make us better if we learn and grow from them.
You’re writing a memoir? How exciting!
What a beautiful story of stumbling. Sometimes we realize a little too late of our actions but I’m sure your grandmother knew you loved her as much as she loved you. Beautiful stained glass windows!
I have no doubt she knew I loved her. I am grateful where this stumble led me. It was a hard lesson though.
I love your sentence, “God takes our broken pieces and makes them into something special to be treasured—like a stained glass window. ” How perfect!
Although you regret not seeing your grandmother, I hope you are not holding that against yourself all these years.
Thanks for sharing!
Paul, Not at all. God has allowed me to release that to His sovereignty. If I hadn’t gone through this I might not have ever written her story. Thank you for the encouragement.